Nothing is ever as simple as you think it’s going to be

So, I turned up yesterday expecting to start Chemo but no, I’m starting pre-chemo.

They are testing the hell out of me and then building me up so that I’m in the best condition I can be before they start to F it all up!

Today I have a pre-radiation therapy meeting, that definitely does start next Monday and by then I’ll have had the transfusions that they think I’ll need and also any other chemical tweaks they think are needed.

The list of side effects is enormous, they should try saying what won’t happen, it would be simpler.

I’m also being switched to stronger pain killers, Fentanyl patches and also tablets. They have a refreshing approach to pain killers here, use them! they’ll worry about possible addiction problems later. Actually they said if they gradually increase and then decrease them it’s not an issue.

That’s a big difference form the UK approach of take a Paracetamol because anything stronger will turn you into a junky.

I’m all in favour of pain killers because what the online help & info sites don’t tell you is how much it will hurt.

Is it possible to use autofocus for an entire movie?

In my pre-occupation with other things in my life at the moment I’ve forgotten to publish the results here of trying to shoot an entire movie with autofocus.

Another movie with Dominic Brunt and he agreed to me using the Canon C300-2 with stills lenses for the entire film.

Although I had an AC he spent a lot of his time watching me try to focus pull using a Samsung Tablet!

I wanted to do it myself just to see how difficult it was and what the najor pitfalls were.

It was a hell of a learning experience but I’d do it again, maybe with a few small changes like taking my own router just for the camera WiFi, using frequency scanners more often and killing anyone who decided to use any form of¬†wireless transmission without clearing it with the camera crew first!

The main lesson is that the newer a lens is the better it copes, well that’s a shock!

Seriously, in a lot of situations the lens just couldn’t focus fast enough, actors running at camera in very low light was a serious issue.

Anyway, lots more here…¬†http://www.cinematography.net/Canon%20C300-2%20Digital%20Assisted%20Focus%20on%20a%20Movie%20%20.html

 

Some days are Diamonds, some days are stone

The words of Tom Petty strike a chord with me again.

“Rhino Skin” and “I won’t back down” have been my soundtrack.

I think I’m going to need this…

“Well, I won’t back down
No, I won’t back down
You can stand me up at the gates of hell
But I won’t back down”

I got the results of a few weeks of tests yesterday, Ultrasound, X-rays, colonoscopy, MRI & CT scan.

The simple thing is that I have rectal cancer and start Chemo on Monday and Radiotherapy on Tuesday. That will be followed by a colostomy.

I’m not going to let it bring me down, I’m going to function as normally as I can.

I won’t be able to go to IBC on the weekdays because of my daily treatments but I will be able to go at the weekend and intend to try.

I’m also hoping that CineFest will agree to me doing my ACES presentation via a narrated PowerPoint and a video intro followed hopefully by a Q&A via Skype.

I’m going to blog my progress and hopefully this will help someone else.

If you’re worried about anything, get it checked and face up to it.